Four days into the new year and seems things haven't picked up the way they should have. My extended new year vacation continues. For reasons like the long weekend and a planned day off work, I am blessed with enough time to laze around, catch up with my reading, blogging and sleeping. All put together this has been a really wonderful time all for myself.
Of course I wasn't going to spend the new year all by myself. With 2010 knocking on our door, we had arranged a small party with family and close friends. It was quite a different experience welcoming the new year over a small cook out party. I can't take all the credit for it and can't thank enough, the rightful people who made it look so deceptively simple.
Our immediate resolution was to stay up all night to chat on whatever topic strikes us first. Chains of topics followed ranging from no-nonsense to all nonsense that we could jabber about. The talks struck gold only after we had retired to sleep and woken up again the next day to continue where we had left off. That topic is something which makes it to my agenda for 2010. Can't disclose all here. :)
The cook out was a pleasant way to welcome the new year. But for the three days that followed, I didn't have much to do. Just relaxing before the start of the rest of 2010. Idle times helped me do some retrospection. But then I thought to myself I do enough retrospection all the time. I think it helps, but simply analyzing your mistakes is no way to deal with what your life holds for you ahead.
I don't even know the word for it. Futurospection, if at all there is anything of the sort. But this word that I invent here only means that I am going to be more analytical and calculative about how things are going to be in the year to come. I resolve to put my happy-go-lucky attitude into a back seat. I resolve to take control of my life and steer it the way I want to. Having little milestones along the road is better than having an uncertain destination at the end of it. That does not mean I squeeze the fun out of life as I know it. The road will have its ups and down and that roller coaster should be a fun to ride along. Except, I want to be the one to drive that car rather than be guided by the rails all along.
2010 promises to be big. I have a list of could-have-beens which I can still achieve and not worry about an year wasted. Then of course there are other things in life which will give it a deeper meaning, a sense of purpose. I want to give it some definite direction rather than go with the flow. These things I talk about, I may not even know yet. Else I would already be in control making this resolution look like a farce.
So this is what I am going to do. Think hard and focus on a life I want to live. This canoe I ride will always keep sweeping along the current unless I row well. If I have to get somewhere or avoid crashing into the rocks, I will have to learn to run the oars.
Futurospection ... that is my resolution for 2010. Please add that word to Webster's because I will be using it time and again, until it gets clichéd.
